Private Emotions!!!!

I wrote this at one of my lowest moments. At the age of 18, it seemed to mirror what I felt. Today it still seems to epitomize the depth of emotions which was my forte then. I haven’t changed much…But somehow today I am confident enough to share it with all of you!!!

Lost And Found

One thing that makes us Human,

Sentiments, Feelings and Emotions.

And yet how many times have I asked,

To be devoid of them.

This everlasting pain.

This emptiness in my heart.

Guilty I was, gave love without gain,

That surrounds and threatens to drown,

The very essence that “I am”.

I am not me anymore,

Just breathing because I have to.

With wounds still sore,

Afraid in my heart of turning into a Nobody.

I try to reach out in the dark,

To get myself back.

Mist around me, I am blind.

I struggle, I fight to find..

The soul that I was.

The person I always wanted to be,

I am tired. I want to rest.

Then may be….

I wonder….

Would it be easy if I let go??

Banish all the memories of good and bad.

“I forgive you” and I feel at peace.

Yes I am ready to face things again.

Anxiety, Apprehension, Trepidations

Bring it on, I am ready.

One thing that makes us ‘Human’

Sentiments, Feelings and Emotions,

Its good to be reminded,

I am after all Human!!!!