Feels like I am always running!!!!

Well, in a very weird state of mind today…. A combination of self pity and denial..

Yes it is true, I go through these kinda phases once in a while, and always end up blaming it on ‘hormones”… easy isn’t it!!! J

It has always been very difficult for me to accept that I feel lonely, that I am human enough to feel and want company… This is not coz I think people who crave for people around are anomalous…. Its coz, I dunno, I just don’t want to acknowledge it.

Been working very hard lately…. Sometimes I think, for what… what am I trying to prove… The day I decided I am not going to take the normal direction that a science student takes… I knew it was gonna be difficult… It’s a constant struggle… like you are giving an explanation to every step you are taking…

I haven’t made many friends… not coz I cant… but because, you gotta be very careful in this so called corporate world… Every action is scrutinized, Every decision questioned…. And people are overtly nice, which scares the hell out of me… Coz I have seen what they are capable of… and I am afraid I might turn into one of them…

I like the work I am doing… but at a price isn’t it… the price of losing myself to pretense, sham and charade of everyday living….

I love Mankind....Its just people I am afraid of!!!

Another person falls prey to Taliban, as the whole world watches!!!!!

I still don’t understand, why a common man, who went abroad to earn his living, should suffer such a fate!!! Does it really matter, if he was an Indian, a Pakistani, or an American…. To me this whole situation seems so unreal. A man gone to Bahrain for work…asked to work in Afghanistan…. And… Murder.

Makes you wonder doesn’t it…if there is any place in this world that is safe!!!

Made me think of the movie “The Village” by N.Shymalan. His concept didn’t make any sense to me , in the beginning. But now that I think about it, I can see, what he meant.

Would we actually need a world away from the world, to feel safe and protected, where evil is just part of your imagination, where innocent men don’t get sacrificed for some fanatic ideology, where one decision don’t cost you your life!!!!